One thing I ask from the LORD, this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.
For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock.
What would you ask of God if you could just ask for one thing?
That is such a hard question.
Events in my life lately have been prodding me to look at my life. Really look hard.
We do not know the number of our days. We can only be thankful for this minute, this hour that He’s granted us.
Between the doctor visits, multiple phone calls & texts, rearranging of schedules, desperate laundry loads I have been seeking what is most important. I ask God to point me in that direction each morning as I start my day. Here is what I’ve gravitated towards.
1. Kiss my husband he might not be there tomorrow.
2. Squeeze my children in tight hugs so they know I love them each day. Even(especially) the big ones.
3. Pray often. Pray about everything. Pray until you can’t stay awake.
4. Forget the rest. Do maintenance as you walk through the day. Right now a to-do list is laughable. Interruptions, sadness, naps all take priority over the rest.
I don’t dwell in the house of the Lord. He dwells in me and allows me to gaze on His beauty and seek him each day.
My life is not beautiful right now. It is a mess. Fatigue and general inability to think has become my “normal.”
But I know He is beautiful and he is walking me through(okay carrying me) this season. I don’t know the answer to the question. More than half the time I don’t even know the question.
But I know he will keep me safe. I can rest in him as I know he is holding me, molding me, shaping me as my family does the hard things that must be done.
I wouldn’t have chosen this adventure(nightmare) that we are on but I can choose where I turn for strength and wisdom. I want to bring glory to him through my actions & words.
Thank you Lord for pointing me towards the most important things each day.